Fading – Remembering – Love – Old Age – Preparation – Getting Older

REMEMBER 

by Christina Rosetti 1830 – 94

Remember me when I am gone away,

Gone far away into the silent land;

When you can no more hold me by the hand,

Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.

Remember me when no more day by day

You tell me of our future that you planned:

Only remember me; you understand

It will be late to counsel then or pray.

Yet if you should forget me for a while

And afterwards remember; do not grieve:

For if the darkness and corruption leave

A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,

Better by far you should forget and smile

Than that you should remember and be sad.

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I shall be 61 years old soon, so I have made it through my 60th year, which has been very difficult for me. The difficulty comes when you don’t feel 60, not in your mind anyway, but the mirror and a chance glance in a shop window, remind you that you no longer look like you thought you looked. I have talked about the physical signs of aging before and will do again, but it’s harder to quantify the emotional mind when it ages.

People change as they get older. Dare I say that I am not the person I was at 14? or 21?, 30?, 40? or 50? I would like to think that I have improved but the truth is that I have just changed. I don’t think I am any better than I was way back then.  Perhaps I am more forgiving? Yes, that is true. I am more forgiving, less judgmental but on the down side, I am more set in my ways. I resist change in my life more than before. I find I don’t yearn to learn new things quite as much as I did even five years ago. It is hard to keep up with new technology. It doesn’t seem to work like it’s supposed to so every day brings a new challenge.  Something has gone wrong with A, B or C and it is up to me or my partner to fix it.

Computers and telephones play a much larger part in our lives than they used to. I have resisted getting a Smartphone thus far; saying to myself that I don’t need one; it is too complicated; I might lose it; I can’t afford the monthly payments now that I am on a restricted budget. Those are the kind of excuses I use for myself. I don’t need one, it is true. I do just fine with the two pay-as-you-go phones I have – one for England and one for America.

Computers are a different matter.  So many forms need to be filled in online these days that no-one can really function properly without one. Then there is the fun side of computers. There is still a lot of fun in surfing the Internet and I enjoy that as much as anyone.  However, my computer in England, which is only two years old, is running very slow.  I have no idea why and no intention of buying software to sort out the problem. I know if I do that, more problems will occur. When I get back I intend to try and speed it up a bit. I may need to buy more memory but should I have to? after only two years use? I’ll let you know.

As I enter my 61st year next week, I find myself spending more and more time remembering……

6 thoughts on “Fading – Remembering – Love – Old Age – Preparation – Getting Older

  1. If you don’t feel 61, don’t be. We may look older, but if the mind is active and the body sound(ish), the night is young.

    Have a very Happy Birthday next week, Oma.

  2. I tend to live in the past. My choosing, I resist ‘change’. I refuse to buy a smart phone, with all the fees that come with it, I’m happy with my mobile, it takes pics and I can make calls,enough technology for me.
    I’ve found since turning sixty, I’m more content with ‘my lot’,
    Dillon will keep you young, my granchildren are now grown, I miss having a toddler around, all wide-eyed and eager to learn.
    Your as old as you feel, and that’s all that really matters, you m’dear have the stamina of a thirty year old !
    Hope your visit is going well…
    ~Jo

  3. A pay as you go smartphone would cover both countries. I have one and wouldn’t be without it. You can do everything,… entries for blogs, make comments on blogs, read and answer email, shop on line. And they’re so easy to use, honestly. If an old lady like me can use one, you surely can at 61. Don’t despair about getting older, sometimes it can be great fun. Happy birthday … enjoy every minute of the day, as well as the rest of your life.

    • Thank you Valerie. Maybe I’ll try a smartphone one day. At least I’ll know who to come to when I can’t work out how to use it (giggles). Thank you for the advice.
      I’m not depressed about the age thing, just wistful. As Larry often says, we have come to the time when there is more sand at the bottom of the hourglass than there is at the top.

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